I Need To Rant

I need to rant. Lately I've noticed two things that annoy the shit out of me. One is I hate it when people can’t keep a conversation. The second thing I hate is when people don’t make you feel included.

I mean how hard is it for you to not respond with a one word answer? I ask you a question, you ask me a question, it’s not that hard. You can ask me the most stupidest, wildest question and I wouldn't mind as long as there is no awkward silence. Stay away from one worded answers because they completely diminish any chance of a further conversation. I understand that some people are shy and timid, but come on its not that hard. Granted there are a couple situations where two people have absolutely nothing in common, but that’s rare. Movies, music, tv shows, books, just pick something and start talking.

I’m pretty sure at some point you have been the new person in the group. A couple weeks ago I had to go to my cousins birthday party. Now you would think that’s not a big deal because my other family members are there to keep me company right? Wrong. My older cousin and his wife are in California celebrating a birthday. My other older cousin lives in New Jersey.  My younger cousin also my partner in crime was in Saint Louis at college. So basically I was alone aside from my cousin the birthday boy. I begged my younger brother and my 16 year old cousin to come along with me and thank god I did. When we get to the party we’re introduced to the people that are already there. Life long friends. After a simply hi they went back to their own conversation. I’m standing there in the kitchen with my brother and younger cousin like what are we suppose to do now. It’s rude. The rest of the night the three of us spent on our own. I mean how big of an ass do you have to be to make people feel felt out and uncomfortable. Keep in mind that there people aren't teenagers they are in their mid twenties. It’s common courtesy to be nice to people especially people who are out of their comfort zone. I mean is it that hard? Is it going to kill you on the inside?

Sorry guys it’s just really been bothering me lately. It’s not hard to keep a conversation going. It’s definitely not hard to make someone feel included. Ask a question. Be kind. Don’t be rude.

Was Your Birthday Yesterday?

It was my my birthday a couple days ago and a couple things happened that I want to share. Now I should start by saying I don't like making my birthday a big deal. I absolutely hate being the center of attention. I don't need a party nor do I need people singing 'Happy Birthday' to me. I enjoy being in the background. With that being said I do expect close friends and family to at least wish me. You would think that with social that wouldn't be a problem, especially with Facebook telling people you haven't talked to in years that its your birthday. I'm going to talk about two people who are very important to me who didn't bother wishing me. I'm not writing this because I'm bitter or anything, but I find it funny. Okay maybe I was a little angry at first, but can you blame me?

Lets start with one of my best friends.
For the sake of their privacy I'm going to use fake names, but the stories are 100% real.
Sarah and I have been close friends for almost 8 years now. Our birthdays are exactly one month apart. Hers is in February and mine is in March. First of all let me start by saying she is in med school so I can't even imagine the pressure or the stress that is on her. So back to the story. On her birthday I text, call, Facebook, and tweet at her, making sure I cover all my grounds. When I called to wish her I reminded her that my birthday was exactly one month away. Her response was simply "I'm so busy here so don't get mad if I forget to wish you." Now with technology today it's as simple as telling siri to set a reminder, it take less than 5 seconds to do. I told her straight forward that she has no reason not to remember. I also told her that I was going to be angry if she forgot. Flash forward a month and here we are. She didn't remember. Around 1 am so it was officially not my birthday anymore I send a snapchat that said 'thanks for the birthday wish' with a sarcastic emoji, keep in mind I was angry and in the moment. I fall asleep and the next morning I get text messages from her, the picture is below. Deep down inside I new she wasn't going to remember and for that reason I wasn't angry. Also she being a smarty pants and it being her exam week deactivated her Facebook and Twitter. I couldn't blame her. After a semi long phone call, all was well. This story leads into my cousins story which is by far more funnier.

My cousin Mike, and I are extremely close especially these last couple of years. The week leading up to my birthday he texted me a countdown. 5 days till your birthday, 4 days...so on and so forth. As you can guess the day of my birthday there was nothing. I sent the same snapchat I sent Sarah to him. It was late at night so he didn't see it till the morning. At 6:45 in the morning my phone starts ringing, but I'm too sleepy to answer. The voicemail sound goes off so I gather enough energy to grab my phone and listen to the message. It was my cousin wishing me a happy birthday. Keep in mind he's a day late, but he doesn't realize that and it makes for a hilarious voicemail. He goes on to say how he wanted to wish me at midnight but he fell asleep and blah blah blah. I'm listening to this voicemail and I start laughing. The picture below is the conversation we had over text after I heard the message. I was mad that he forgot especially because he had a countdown also because he didn't realize that he was a day. He proceeded like he genuinely remembered my birthday. It. Was. Hilarious.

Initially I wasn't too happy that the two of the closest people to me forgot, but its pretty funny looking back at it now. I get to hold the voicemail over my cousin now. I get to remind him how much of an idiot he his. Overall I had a great birthday. I loved spending time with my family and friends. I wanted to share this because I thought it was funny.

Wait For You by J. Lynn

Some things are worth waiting for…

Traveling thousands of miles from home to enter college is the only way nineteen-year-old Avery Morgansten can escape what happened at the Halloween party five years ago—an event that forever changed her life. All she needs to do is make it to her classes on time, make sure the bracelet on her left wrist stays in place, not draw any attention to herself, and maybe—please God—make a few friends, because surely that would be a nice change of pace. The one thing she didn’t need and never planned on was capturing the attention of the one guy who could shatter the precarious future she’s building for herself.

Some things are worth experiencing…

Cameron Hamilton is six feet and three inches of swoon-worthy hotness, complete with a pair of striking blue eyes and a remarkable ability to make her want things she believed were irrevocably stolen from her. She knows she needs to stay away from him, but Cam is freaking everywhere, with his charm, his witty banter, and that damn dimple that’s just so… so lickable. Getting involved with him is dangerous, but when ignoring the simmering tension that sparks whenever they are around each other becomes impossible, he brings out a side of her she never knew existed.

Some things should never be kept quiet…

But when Avery starts receiving threatening emails and phone calls forcing her to face a past she wants silenced, she’s has no other choice but to acknowledge that someone is refusing to allow her to let go of that night when everything changed. When the devastating truth comes out, will she resurface this time with one less scar? And can Cam be there to help her or will he be dragged down with her?

And some things are worth fighting for…

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This book. This book is beyond perfection. Let me start by saying I will never look at cookies and eggs the same way again. I read this book in the beginning of August and ever since I've compared every other book I've read to it. Let me just say nothing has even come close to this book. If you want a book that will have you swooning after every page, from beginning to end, then this is the book for you.


I'm not going to go into detail about what happens in the book because the summary does a good job explaining that. Also if I tell you what happens then what is the point of you reading the book. Instead I'm just going to talk about how this book is pure perfection. 

My favorite thing about this book is how Cam and Avery develop a friendship first and then it turns into something more. There are multiple books out there where two people see each other and they are instantly in love and that is just not how it works. What Cam and Avery have is realistic, they take time to get to know each other before they become a couple. When they do finally take their friendship to the next level you can't help but feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

The characters are well developed and extremely lovable. Yes it is true I fell head over heels in love with Cameron Hamilton. He is my ideal, perfect in every way book boyfriend and I'm pretty damn sure no one else will ever compare. The playful banter that the two have is going to leave you smiling like an idiot.

I can't explain to you how wonderful, awesome, amazing, swoon-worthy this book is. If you're looking for a book that makes your heart flutter then this is the book for you. If you love the whole friends who turn into lovers story line then I promise you that you will LOVE this book.

Music

So I went to dinner the other night and the topic of music came up. I got stuck at the kids side of the table and their ages varied from first grade to junior year in high school.  We talked about Justin Bieber, One Direction, and Big Time Rush. Me personally I'm a fan of all three, but that is not the point of this blog post. During dinner my guy cousin who is a freshman in high says to my girl cousin who is a junior, "I can't believe you don't listen to music." She simply responds by saying that she doesn't like music and that she doesn't care to listen to it.

I found this incredibly unsettling. How can someone not listen to music? Listening to the right song at the right time can change your whole mood. For almost four minutes you can forget about what is going on in the world. You can forget about all the drama, the stress, the uncertainty and just tune out. Music is an escape. There is a song out there for every mood no matter how your're feeling. There is always those couple of songs that you feel in every bone in your body. What Hurts The Most by Rascal Flatts that is the one song when it's combined with the music video that I feel in every inch of me. Not only does music allow you to get away it's a reminder. Listening to a song and remembering the first time you heard it or remembering the amazing time you had with your friends. My high school days were spent hanging out in my basement with my friends listening to music and dancing around. Every time I listen to Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship or Best I Ever Had by Drake it reminds me of those memories.

In a world where we are so stressed music is a nice release. I find it hard to believe that my cousin doesn't listen to music. It's sad because she won't ever experience the sheer joy a song can bring.

Eye Shadow Nail Polish

We all have old eye shadow that that we never use. In this post I'm going to show you how to turn that eye shadow into a super cute nail polish.

Things you will need:

Eye shadow

A small container

Clear nail polish

Nail polish remover

A brush

Something to stir with

First step:

Scrap the eye shadow you want to use into the small container. 

Second step:

Add a couple drops (depends on how much eye shadow you have) of clear nail polish and about 2 drops of nail polish remover.

Third Step:

Use your stirrer, I used the end of a q-tip and mix it all together. You can add more clear nail polish depending on the consistency. You want something that is going to be easy to apply on your nails.

Final step:
Take a brush and apply it to your nails. The brush I used is a small old makeup brush. Finally add a top coat and you're finished!

Hope you enjoyed this! :)x

It's Okay

         Ever had one of those days where the stress and concerns of life just pile on. You just start to reevaluate all the decisions you've made and you start to feel real low. Well today is one of those days for me. I didn't get a good nights sleep and when I woke up I heard my mom talking on the phone and she said something that made me sad. My day has been downhill from there. Its not necessarily that other bad things happened its more so of me beating myself up on every wrong decision I've made and how its affected the people around me.

        I don't have these days very often because I try to remain positive and make the most of everyday, but sometimes you can't help it. Sometimes you just need to feel sad. Sometimes you need to just cry and let out the emotions that you kept bottled up inside. Times like this I do what I do best and that is pray. I don't pray to a specific god or anything like that I just pray in general. I ask for guidance, strength, and hope that everything turns out okay. Most of the times it does and the problems that I built up in my head turn out to be not so bad.

       I'm sure I'm not the only one out there who feels like this. We live in a world where you have so many responsibilities at such an young age and it only gets worse as you get older. If I've learned anything from my moments of weakness it's that it's OKAY. I was on twitter this afternoon and came across a quote that completely changed my mood.

"It’s OK to cry, it’s OK to be afraid, it’s OK to be weak, its OK to be vulnerable, it’s OK to be human." 

    It's just a couple of words, but the meaning behind the words is significant. It's okay to cry, to be afraid, to be weak, and to be vulnerable because that is what makes us human. Humans have faults we aren't robots we make mistakes. It's what we do with those mistakes that makes us who we are. How can you truly enjoy the good if you've never experienced the bad? It's like when you get a cold and you can't breathe properly, your head hurts, you're coughing and in that moment of weakness you promise yourself that if you beat this sickness you won't take something as simple as breathing through your nose for granted.

     Next time you feel glum or just scared understand that it's okay. Believe that you can overcome it and understand that no matter what there is always hope. Hope for a better tomorrow. One bad day doesn't mean a bad life.

Santa Hat Nails

This one of my favorite holiday nail art designs. It's extremely easy and super cute. The best thing is that it doesn't take that long. It only took me about 5 minutes. The things you will need for this design are: a base coat, clear tape, red and white nail polish, bobby pin, and a top coat.

The first step like always is apply a base. Next you are going to place the tape on your nails so you form a triangle. Make sure you leave some room on the top. Follow the picture below.

Next step is to paint the triangle red. Wait about a minute or so before you take off the tape.

Now take the white nail polish and use the brush to make the bottom of the hat. You could use the brush to make the little ball at the top of your hat, but I prefer the bobby pin. Place a drop or couple on a piece of paper and use the bobby pin to make little fluffy ball on top. Add a top coat and you are finished.

Happy Holidays!!!